The Dark Side of Love is a song inspired by Zephaniah 3 and the message by Dr. J. Vernon McGee. People often associate the love of God with good feelings, happy thoughts, blessings, and even prosperity. However, there is much darker side to His love. One that makes us uncomfortable to talk about or imagine. One that can invoke terror.
It is the dark side of love—God’s love. And in order to make this clear, perhaps I should brief you on a terrifying scene.
The first full length song on Ugly on the Inside, is the title track. This song wastes no time with nice words, political correctness, or feels. There’s a large and growing school of thought today that people are basically good, and beautiful on the inside. And while that is a nice sentiment, and makes people feel good, it’s far from the truth. The hard truth is, we’re all ugly on the inside.
Sure, we might feel like we’re good at times, but our hearts deceive us and quickly turn on us. The heart of mankind is evil. There’s a sickness inside, like a storm brewing in the distance growing ever closer. Even the good, and kind things we do are like whitewashing a tomb, making it all pretty on the outside while we’re rotting within.
While this song paints a dark portrait of humanity, there is more to this story. I will continue to dig deeper with the next song.
Ugly on the Inside
Pretend that I’m okay when I’m falling apart Never imagined that life would imitate art I don’t know if it’s remorse or regret The constant bad dreams haven’t let up yet
We’re all ugly on the inside We were told that we were beautiful, but that’s a lie You’re all ugly on the inside There’s a sickness that comes from within, and then you die
Pretending I’m okay when I’ve fallen apart Impending darkness broods as it swarms my heart There is so much that I must hide At times it seems like it’s impossible, but I still try
We all still deserve everything we get And it’s much too late to try to turn back
The introduction to the new album Ugly on the Inside is a short instrumental thematic industrial noise track. In essence, it’s dark and somewhat chaotic nature sets the scene for the rest of the album.
The noise patterns glitch, toms and snare pound rhythmically in the forefront. The ominous voice sampled in the background poses the question. “Can we be sure there are no supernatural laws beyond our understanding?”
The short song itself came into existence just 2 weeks before the completion of the album. N and I sat down after much of it was built and sampled the 1943 horror film Dead Men Walk on Archive.org. There was more gems in that film than just this one, but you’ll have to wait for those.
New music coming Friday, Feb 1st. This 6 song EP is industrial rock at it’s grittiest. Ugly on the Inside is a dark look into the human condition and the ultimate realization that is captured in the song Hole.
Nearly all of the songs on this EP have been years in the making. Two in particular are about 20 years old, and have a deep history, but never before released. I will be releasing blog posts covering each song over the next few days. Let’s shoot for one a day, along with a preview of each song.